Reading through my posts this past week, I’ve been thinking a lot about “hunger”, about desires. Who I want to be and what kind of life I want to create. Just a few favorite quotes from this week:
“It was right for me to lean into my desires and lean into the woman I wanted to become…
God was saying YES to me, so it made it okay that other people didn’t understand me, or other people thought I was wrong…
Attend to your own development.”Dr Finlayson-Fife
“Let’s look at the Latin translation of ‘prosperity’. Prosperity has two root words: pro and sper. The root word ‘pro’ means to ‘go forward’. The root work ‘sper’ means ‘with hope’. Therefore, ‘prosperity’ means to go forward with hope.”Brooke Snow
“‘Blessed are they who do hunger and thirst after righteousness…’ (3 Nephi 12:6).
When you hunger and thirst, you ache…. like something is missing. If that is how you feel, you are in a good place!
…That ache, that pain, that struggle is what is actually going to turn you to Him. Congratulations! Desperation opens the door to heaven.”Emily Bell Freeman
I have been thinking about hunger. The power of hunger, but also the power I should have over hunger. I hunger for change and adventure and education and experiences and to write about these experiences, and also the ability to love and to see clearly and to reverence creation. I believe the Lord plants desires in us. And I believe He truly respects the desires we have within us.
“Of course our genes, circumstances, and environments matter very much, and they shape us significantly. Yet there remains an inner zone in which we are sovereign, unless we abdicate. In this zone lies the essence of our individuality … Therefore, what we insistently desire, over time, is what we will eventually become and what we will receive in eternity. ‘For I [said the Lord] will judge all men according to their works, according to the desire of their hearts’ (D&C 137:9.”Neal A Maxwell
It is our desires – those things we hunger for – that make us individuals. And it’s appropriate to hunger and seek – to desire. But I also believe that we do have and absolutely should have responsibility over our hungering. Like a diet, right? When I hunger for something that would not serve me well, I remind myself what it is that I want MORE. Maxwell calls this “educating our desires”. When I hunger for a doughnut, I remind myself that I want to feel good MORE than I want that doughnut. When I hunger for an over-seas adventure, I remind myself that I want to focus on building our nest-egg for our future, at the point, more than I want that adventure.
Maybe we could not only “educate our desires”, but maybe we could consider seeking to be educated about our desires. The idea is this: Before I can change them, help me to understand them, right? Why is it that I desire travel? Is it any reflection on my feelings about where I am at right now in my life? Or is it a reflection on the person that I want myself to become? What is my why? Do I like my why? Can I become more educated – can I see more clearly – what is going on inside of me, reflected in my desires.
And then, coming from that place of clarity: What do I REALLY want? And that is the question, then, right? What is it that I really desire?
I want a good relationship with my children. I want a good relationship with myself – past, present, and future. I want a good, trusting relationship with God – I want to trust Him entirely, and I want Him to be able to trust me. I want to be “true at all times in whatsoever thing (I am) entrusted” (Alma 53:20).
And we will be talking more about that one tomorrow. Have a great Saturday, my friends!