I have done some work this week, blogging about resistance and about my brain, and about managing my lower brain. I have done some work in my personal life this week, applying these principles.

It will take time, and practice, and love, and maybe even a miracle, to get me from where I am at to where I want to be. I journaled:

I know there is a God, and the He is not only aware of each of us, but concerned and even working in each of our lives.

Too many miracles have happened for there not to be a God. Big miracles – yes. But it’s the small, every day miracles that put me in awe, and fill me with gratitude.

…The miracle of a softer heart – my own heart included! A phone call or a visit from a friend. A smell in the breeze that reminds me of my beloved Africa. Or peace even in the midst of sorrow, and contentment in the midst of crying babies and violin practicing and Pokemon trading and dinner burning.

That contentment didn’t come from within my reserves – I am absolutely beat. But from an unseen source, a loving Father, whom I serve and whom I love.

And then, once I get “there” – once I am where I planned on and prayed to get to – I fully anticipate finding another area of my life that I will want to intentionally re-create.

And that is how it works – that is the plan of God.

“For behold, thus saith the Lord God: I will give unto the children of men line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little; and blessed are those who hearken unto my precepts, and lend an ear unto my counsel, for they shall learn wisdom; for unto him that receiveth I will give more; and from them that shall say, We have enough, from them shall be taken away even that which they have.”

2 Nephi 28:30